I told myself I'd work on this blog at least weekly, I was kidding myself. I guess I've been busy lately trying to think about college and essays and entrance exams and it just is stressful for me. I'm a broke person, no job, still living with my mother (granted I'm still in high school ) My younger sister has a better relationship on her third attempt at dating then I ever have had at any of my numerous failures and I just feel like crap. On the bright side of my moody rant, I found out my two 'goody goody' friends are actually really fun to hang out with out side of school. Turns out we have a lot in common once we get away from the crowd of people we have to be guarded around. Alas, it doesn't last because while they pretend to be boring good kids, I go back to pretending to hate everything walking so it will leave me alone when we are at school. Some secrets are fun to keep I suppose, and this will be one of my few that i do keep. Still though I am feeling rather useless and like a waste of space and it is not making me all that happy. I'm tired of feeling like a burden but every time I try to do something I feel like I can't do it with out someone else's help and that bugs me the most, I hate needing other people to help me. That is my rant for this evening while i'm trying to pull my mind away from distractions, HA its not working -.-.
