So, Today I had an emotional break down. But I better cover the last couple weeks first. So, I went and did the play "They Danced Real Slow in Jackson" turned out great, everyone loved it. We took it too a competition called Play Festival in Missoula Montana and ended up getting second place. We had to cut the play down to Forty minutes but it was really good. I loved it. Then after the play was over I've had time off and have been playing more league again. I'm up to Silver there.
My grades have gone up. I finished my last math class ever, hopefully, and am now ready for college mostly. I still have to finish my senior year but all my hard subjects are out of the way. I'm really happy I've been doing so well in school this year. Prom is coming up and I don't know who I'm going with. I went to my first Rave for once, and it went rather well. My friend and I , she being from Germany, left early because some drunk guys were hitting on us. It was unique I guess. I also have been realizing who my true friends are and it makes me happy. Its been a long year.
Most of all, right now, I've found something out about myself that I didn't know. I don't want to date. I want to get married. I want a family, a kid of my own, a husband that I can welcome when he gets off work. I want to be an actress and raise a family, I want to have a complete family of my own. I want to have that kind of relationship, not just date someone. It makes me feel weird, but, that's what I want.
I also realized that I am a lot more sensitive then I realized, I'm very kind, and very caring , and very sensitive towards other peoples feelings if I care about them. I hate upsetting people I know and like, it makes me feel like crap. This has been a really enlightening year for me.
My grades have gone up. I finished my last math class ever, hopefully, and am now ready for college mostly. I still have to finish my senior year but all my hard subjects are out of the way. I'm really happy I've been doing so well in school this year. Prom is coming up and I don't know who I'm going with. I went to my first Rave for once, and it went rather well. My friend and I , she being from Germany, left early because some drunk guys were hitting on us. It was unique I guess. I also have been realizing who my true friends are and it makes me happy. Its been a long year.
Most of all, right now, I've found something out about myself that I didn't know. I don't want to date. I want to get married. I want a family, a kid of my own, a husband that I can welcome when he gets off work. I want to be an actress and raise a family, I want to have a complete family of my own. I want to have that kind of relationship, not just date someone. It makes me feel weird, but, that's what I want.
I also realized that I am a lot more sensitive then I realized, I'm very kind, and very caring , and very sensitive towards other peoples feelings if I care about them. I hate upsetting people I know and like, it makes me feel like crap. This has been a really enlightening year for me.
