Two months left till graduation June 5th and I'm done. It's sort of scary. All the kids I've made bonds with in high school, all the people I know. Gone. There are going to be four of us going to the same college, that's about it. I'm scared. One of my friends got into one of the top fashion design colleges in the country, I'm really excited for him. Another got into a top music college, so on and so forth. I think another is going to Harvard. It's just a little weird you know? I'm walking the school grounds, I say hi to people, all the seniors know my name and say hi to me, a lot of juniors and sophomores too, I guess I'm popular. I have a lot of friends. I'll lose them, the second I'm gone, they'll forget me. A few of us will stay connected, we will message each other and find time to hang out. I guess I just feel weird. My senior year, I finally say hi to a lot of people in the hall way, I finally have a good high school life, hell today I took a department picture for the year book. I've never done that before. I'd never been part of a department. I was in a play called "They Danced Real Slow in Jackson" I was a creepy voice in the actresses head. IT was fun, I got a lot of compliments on my performance. I was really happy about that, they said they were actually scared of my creepy voice. I loved that so much. I also played a bitchy mother at a department store, people said I was a bitch, which was a compliment because that's what I was going for. This play I'm painting the set. I'm getting really into the Theater department. I'm really glad I tried out for the play I did, and took the class I have, and pretty much everything I'm doing. IT takes up a lot of my free time, and applying for college stuff takes up another chunk, but I'm happy. The only thing I'm really regretting right now is A) I have a shit love life because my emotions are out of wack, maybe some day I'll read this again and go 'yeah I was so screwed up.' and hopefully by then I'll have a family of my own but B) I don't have a job. That sort of bothers me. I want to be an Actress or Model but till I go to japan that isn't much but a far off dream, for now I just need some sort of job to earn a bit more money to put in savings. If I have savings I'll feel better. Anyways, thats all for today, talk more next time. (Also adding a few pictures of what I've been up too)
