I hate this feeling. This empty feeling which plagues me and no one gives a damn. My mom writes it off as hormones and it may be but I think it could also be more. Why does no one care about me? the only time I get recognized as anything other than 'lazy, stupid, annoying, loud mouthed, arrogant, bratty, bitchy, mean, cruel , vindictive, violent or anything else' is when I do art. Why is it that no one cares about me except when I paint them a pretty picture or draw them a cute image? Am I really that bad? does no one see that I hurt and I'm alone and that all I want is to be noticed and cared about. My mom is always gone and we hardly ever talk or do anything together. My friends always end up leaving me or ignoring me. My grandparents are never really there for me the only one that ever actively seeks my attention or my help with anything is the dog. Why does everyone think I'm so useless? I'm almost 18 and I feel as if I'm still five. I feel isolated and useless and unwanted. I hate this feeling but I've had it since I was little. Is my pain warranted or is it my imagination? Why cant I keep a relationship going? why do I always break up with people with in a month when I want affection... What's wrong with me?
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