Its a new year, I haven't been posting much but there wasn't much to post about. I was in college algebra, not a fun class. Became friends with some interesting people, lost friendships with those who weren't worth it, got a job and lost it, and now I'm getting ready for a play I'm in. And They Danced Real Slow in Jackson is such an interesting play but at the same time it makes no sense and it's convoluted. I also ended up with a boyfriend. It amuses me because we met online, and most would say that's creepy, 'well what if he is a killer and faking not being one.' I dont think I have to worry about that. He is a killer, and he is open about BEING a killer. He is my killer though, which makes me laugh. He gets so angry and frustrated about other people and all he ever wants to do is kill everyone and he hates everyone, but, not to me. All I ever get when he talks about me is how he wish he could cuddle me , how he'll make my life easier. He acts so evil and mean and then he talks to me like I'm the light in his life, like I'm the goddess his sun and his moon. It makes me smile. I like the difference on how he treats me verses everyone else. He makes me feel special and wanted and a good sort of different. Where he hates others he loves me and I like that. I can handle him hating others so long as he always loves me. I guess I'm messed up but that is the best kind of love in my eyes. Though, I do admit the idea that if I ever break my heart I'll be fucking screwed scares me XD. Oh well, one bridge at a time. Senior year is so interesting so far.
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