So I realized today the real reason I don't want to be a senior. Because in exactly a years time as of tomorrow, I will lose the rest of my high school friends.
I know people always tell me 'oh no we will still be friends.' But I was in a different school for half a year this year and did any of you bother to message me how I was? they didn't... but no we will still be together. It hurts I guess. The fact that I know once they don't see me every day they will write me off as their past and move on. I guess I'm just sad that I'm going to lose people I grew up with because they don't care. I'm worried that people will forget about me so no, I do not want to be a senior.
Hell, I already lost my high school crush since he moved to a different city. He moved right after we both figured out exactly how much we meant to each other and I haven't heard from him since. I'm worried that everyone is going to be like that so I'm sad. I wish someone could tell me that it would all be okay, that I'm not going to be stuck in the world all alone and that reality really isn't as harsh as it seems. But even if people tell me that I know it's candy coated lies. Its depressing but true. My senior year is a year I'm going to lose in sadness, unless I make the most of it.
Next school year I'm going to try my best to be nice and happy and smiling so when I talk about my last year of high school when I'm older, all I'll have to talk about is good times and great people... but that's just a wish which will be hard to make come true.
I know people always tell me 'oh no we will still be friends.' But I was in a different school for half a year this year and did any of you bother to message me how I was? they didn't... but no we will still be together. It hurts I guess. The fact that I know once they don't see me every day they will write me off as their past and move on. I guess I'm just sad that I'm going to lose people I grew up with because they don't care. I'm worried that people will forget about me so no, I do not want to be a senior.
Hell, I already lost my high school crush since he moved to a different city. He moved right after we both figured out exactly how much we meant to each other and I haven't heard from him since. I'm worried that everyone is going to be like that so I'm sad. I wish someone could tell me that it would all be okay, that I'm not going to be stuck in the world all alone and that reality really isn't as harsh as it seems. But even if people tell me that I know it's candy coated lies. Its depressing but true. My senior year is a year I'm going to lose in sadness, unless I make the most of it.
Next school year I'm going to try my best to be nice and happy and smiling so when I talk about my last year of high school when I'm older, all I'll have to talk about is good times and great people... but that's just a wish which will be hard to make come true.
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