You know, I've known my brother was a selfish asshole since I was five years old. The way he always acted better then me because he was our grandparents only grandson always set us apart. As he grew older he just got worse and he became even more of an asshole, treating everyone in the house like shit even our mother. He would break walls and shit he had no right breaking. My mother has worked her ass off for us as a single mom all her life and then to top it off the second my brother hits twelve he thinks he knows everything and treats her like shit.
My mom has taken his verbal abuse since he was 12 years old, he is 19 now , about to be 20 and he still treats her like shit. Today was the last straw. The cops had to be called because of his verbal abuse and he was kicked out of the house, he doesn't pay rent, doesn't help us , doesn't do shit but mooch off my mother. I'm 17, almost 18 and I've payed more bills than he ever has helping mom out. My mother is in tears and the worst feeling in the world is knowing I can't help her. There is nothing I can say or do that will make her feel better and its breaking my heart. I wish my brother had never been born, I wish he wasn't part of our family and I wish he'd stop hurting my mother. She doesn't deserve that.
I feel so damn helpless right now. I never want to see my brother again, I never want to hear from him again or know how he is doing. He could die tomorrow and I couldn't care less because of how he treated my mother. I hate him. There is no love, I am not god, I am not perfect. I do not love him. I hate him with every fiber of my being and I wish him the worst because of what he has done to my mom, to me, and to my family.
My mom has taken his verbal abuse since he was 12 years old, he is 19 now , about to be 20 and he still treats her like shit. Today was the last straw. The cops had to be called because of his verbal abuse and he was kicked out of the house, he doesn't pay rent, doesn't help us , doesn't do shit but mooch off my mother. I'm 17, almost 18 and I've payed more bills than he ever has helping mom out. My mother is in tears and the worst feeling in the world is knowing I can't help her. There is nothing I can say or do that will make her feel better and its breaking my heart. I wish my brother had never been born, I wish he wasn't part of our family and I wish he'd stop hurting my mother. She doesn't deserve that.
I feel so damn helpless right now. I never want to see my brother again, I never want to hear from him again or know how he is doing. He could die tomorrow and I couldn't care less because of how he treated my mother. I hate him. There is no love, I am not god, I am not perfect. I do not love him. I hate him with every fiber of my being and I wish him the worst because of what he has done to my mom, to me, and to my family.
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